No Matter What

I've been thinking a lot...too much so these days. Why? why? WHY? Why do people go and do these things? Why can't we talk straight with each other? What is unity? Do I really know what I am doing here? Why do I react like I do? Why are others reacting so? Do I judge or do I try and perceive what could be going on behind the reaction I see? God help me to sit back, study my own life, and THEN....when my own perception is right, to go forth with God and help in whatever way I can. Life hasn't been easy, it isn't getting easier, but I am learning. Learning more than ever what it means to surrender. Surrender hurts. I'm stubborn. Tears don't change that but in these moments I am trying to do as David and TRUST. Trust the unknown when all I seem to have is myself to trust. People hurt..words kill.... and through the pain I begin to be like so many people I have tried to reach the past three years... "I ain't trustin nobody" . I can't go there. I WO...

Home....where laundry doesn't need turned inside out before washing, beetles infest clean wash from the line, washers hold mega amounts of clothes, ovens take long to bake, shops are not a few feet away to get a missing ingredient, drive here. drive there. in car.out of car. turn on AC. turn off AC...it's too cold, and COFFEE has many creamer flavors. Home is home. Adjustments are hard. Or wait..have I been home at all to adjust- hardly. Too many things have me other places other than home. I know reality will hit just now! The morning came to early. It does this to me every time. Maybe it is my lack of responsibility to go and sleep at a more normal time of the morning. Nonetheless morning dawned and with it lack of sleep for the ten hour drive. Five people in a van and off we were for the state of Indiana where county roads run hither and yon, grass is brown, roads are flat, but people are amazing and a beautiful friend was about to get married! The weekend had finally co...

"Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together?  I guess that wouldn't work.  Someone would leave.  Someone always leaves.  Then we would have to say good-bye.  I hate good-byes.  I know what I need.  I need more hellos."....so very true indeed. It was only a half day of school but we filled it with story, practicing Ten Commandment songs, cleaning out desks and classroom and of course some extra break! These kids have impacted my life so much. I love them. I can see why they make visas difficult. I sure would keep them there if I could. Nigel, Maleah, Abijah, Keona, Celina, and Hannah..you will forever hold a special place in my heart. Thursday night was Awards ceremony. They were awarded for grades as well as character traits that they portrayed through the year. The Kindergarteners were SO EXCITED! As you can see on the next picture they could not hide it! ..and the a...

Excitement abounded as we boarded the truck. Reaching passerby's ears were "God's Top Ten Commandments" songs. We arrived at our destination for the day. QUARANTINE POINT It's all fun..till someone falls out! Kick the can...Come on Ms. Metzler remover yourself from so close to the thing. This creature ended up down a teacher's back. It came out half dead. Hannah Xaria, Celina and Ms. Metzler Lunch was provided by the teachers. KFC...I don't really do that fast food sort of thing but the chicken poppers sure were quite nice. Water balloon toss was a struggle but eventually success happened. oops...it went straight up! I wanted a reminder of my students for when I gone back. I decided to use up a canvas and gave them each a spot to paint. They loved it and so do I. Hannah painting away! Nigel doing his part The finished project. I.LOVE.IT! basketball.basketball. that's all the...